Those were the broken hearted words of young Jennifer as she responded to the girl in her high school.
Jennifer was a very beautiful young lady. Her countenance radiated purity. She had made the commitment to keep her emotional and physical purity until the day she was married. This was a commonly know fact among her high school peers.
Often times she had been made fun of because she chose not to date or flirt with the guys like the others girls.
She was known as a prude, and often referred to as a "good little Christian girl".
All of this never bothered her, in fact she thought of it as a good thing, because she knew others had taken notice of her commitment to her Lord and her future husband. She would humbly pray for opportunities to share her testimony of Salvation and her reason for not dating daily.
She was confronted by a girl who was under deep conviction. Jessica was also raised in a Christian home and had made the same commitments of purity as Jennifer. But as soon as Jessica made it to Middle School, the temptations and peer pressure to date were so overwhelming. Jessica desperately wanted to fit in and be thought of as cool that she turned her back on those commitments and started dating Tim. Before long Jessica and Tim were pretty close, they had held hands and kissed and soon they had given in to each other.
It wasn't long after that, that Tim dumped Jessica. Jessica was heartbroken.
After a few weeks Jessica seemed to be a different person, she had seemed to lose her sense of worth and value. Her dress standards became less and less modest. And she began to flirt with more and more guys. She started dating more frequently and with various partners.
She started to give her body to just about anyone who would give her attention. In the next year or so, she seemed to have walked so far away from the Lord and everyone seemed to notice except Jessica.
Until one day in the commons area Jessica heard Jennifer talking to another girl about the Lord and her testimony of Salvation and purity. Jessica was quietly listing to everything Jennifer was saying and it seemed to convict her heart. In that moment of conviction her heart was hardened. Instead of coming back to the Lord she let her bitterness and pride get in the way.
Jessica raised her voice and said "poor little Jennifer, she has never had a boyfriend, she has never dated. She is destined to be a lonely old lady, they only things she will have to love her are cats.
No man would ever marry on old prude, no man will ever want to marry her, she wouldn't even know how to kiss. Men want a girl that has some experience. You have never had a boyfriend because you are ugly and you just use God as an excuse!"
Jennifer was so hurt by the ugliness of Jessica's words. She was also so embarrassed that someone would call her out and say such mean things. But the thing that hurt her the most was knowing just how wrong Jessica was. Knowing how much pain she must be in to have said such hurtful things. Knowing that if her heart didn't change she would never experience true love. Love that is pure and holy.
Jennifer responded with tears in her eyes and such brokenness for Jessica, "At any moment I can become just like you, but you can never be like me again, but I know a Saviour who can make all things new."
"Jessica I love you and I know God does too. Please open up your heart."
It wasn't long until Jennifer was able to help Jessica get right with God. Jessica seemed to have her own Psalm 51 experience. She was closer to the Lord than ever. She was growing everyday. As a result Jessica and Jennifer became very close friends and were the maid and matron of honer at each others weddings.
Today Jessica and Jennifer are both Sunday School teachers in their local churches They are both happily married to wonderful men of God. They both have beautiful families.
Jessica loves to share with young ladies her testimony, she shares the scars and pain she has had to carry as a result of her sinful choices, and the power of God to make all things new.
If you are reading this and you think, "well I can mess around and everything will be ok in the end", you are sadly mistaken. Sin has its consequences.
Jessica often says, "As amazing of a testimony as I have, as amazing as God is to have given me a second chance, I wish that I could stand up in front of you all and say I kept my purity, but I can't. I wish I could tell my husband that his hand was the first hand I ever held, his lips the first kiss, but I can't. BUT YOU CAN!"
Jessica came back to the Saviour and He did make all things new. And he can for you too. But know that if you make the decision to go into sin, you can expect some severe consequences.